Are you ever stuck on a decision? When you think about it, you really can't decide whether its worth doing it or not. Sadly, this sort of thing happens to me quite often. I have problems deciding on things because I can view it from various points, making me see the good and bad. This just makes the decision ever more difficult.
My life, filled with everyday decisions, is very all over the place as I have no idea what I "truly" want. It's even hard for me to buy things without contemplating whether or not I should or should not have bought it. I have had MANY many times when I would buy something, and regretted buying it while other times I wouldn't buy something, and regretted not buying it. I'm still not sure of what it is to "want" something and feel "happy" after finally getting it. Whenever I feel like I want something sooo bad, in the end, after I've received it, I can't feel the passion from before when I didn't have it. I'm not sure if its just me, or if everyone is like that because we as humans are greedy and want things we can't or don't want, and if we do get them we end up taking them for granted or throwing them away. It seems our desires just continually grow on forever.
I want to have that feeling of being truly satisfied after getting what I have been longing for so long. I want to know what that kind of true happiness is, and want to experience it for myself.